Ten Freaking Years (Warning: May Contain Typos.)

The intention behind this post is to look at back on the decade. The 2000's. It's not really that exciting that the world has made it another ten years. Especially since we're supposedly all going to die in 2012. If you believe that, then this is a depressing occasion for you.

Anyways, I'll be honest. I can't remember the last ten years that well. I remember change, whether it was of the world or within my family or just my own self.
Here are some things that were highlights for me, not in a chronological order:

-2002: My brother Ethan was born. I had prayed and begged for a sibling for 9 years only to find out that it wasn't worth it. Babies are hard to deal with and they sucked up all the attention. Seven years later, I still regret wanting a brother, but I deal with him...because I love him to death. :)

-2007: My paternal grandfather died. It was my first real experience with death and it was very weird. It took a long time for the reality of it to settle with me.

-2005: I started middle school. It was definitely the beginning of the rest of my life. From there, I made that unavoidable transition from childhood to angst-ridden adolescence. I've learned a lot about myself and the world around me since then. It's been crazy. I'm just glad that the worst of these years is over.

-2008: My second brother, Henry, was born. This was the unexpected one; a huge surprise for my family. There was a lot of uncertainty over whether he'd ever be born. My mother thought that she'd lose him or something would go wrong. We kept it a secret until she was about 6 months along and there was no denying it. My family would have one more child. Henry was born in late October. Mom was scheduled to have a C-Section on the 27th, but Henry decided to arrive one day early. He was born at some early hour on Oct. 26th. Of course, I don't know actual hour, haha.


As I write this and rack my brain for more meaningful memories, I'm getting lost. Those were four that stood out in my mind even though I know there is so much more.
Sometimes I can't believe how fast time has gone and how much I've changed. I can't believe how fast my brothers are growing and how everyone in my life is growing up as well.

2009 was an interesting year for me. It was meant to be my year to turn my life around completely. I had been letting little things really affect my grades and my outlook on life and I couldn't take it anymore. Of course, I've never been the happiest, most positive person ever. In fact, I never will be. Cynicism is just a huge part of me and I actually kind of like it. Anyways, I was really miserable in 2008, so I vowed to make 2009 the best year ever. I'd like to think that I did a pretty good job of doing that, too. I turned my grades around, going from a 3.3 GPA to a 3.5 to a 4.0. That was really all it took to make me happy, but things continued to look up. I met more people that helped change my outlook on things and had an amazing summer. When the new school year began, I was confident and ready for anything. Or so I thought.

AP classes were a shock to me. I wasn't used to the structure and strictness and the NOTES. Oh, the notes... First term was a struggle, and a bit disappointing. Second term has so far had a similar feel. But, I'm putting myself back on the right track and am determined to get straight A's for the rest of the year and for my entire senior year.

I realize that I have trailed off a bit and for that I apologize. The fact that you're even reading this just means so much to me. I usually write these just for myself, but I think that some people actually read this blog. Nosy family members, mostly. ;) If my writing is painfully bad, sorry. My mind goes in several different directions while I'm trying to talk about one thing.

In short, I just think that the past ten years were the same as any other decades: The world changed, new things were invented, technology advanced, more art was created, people were born, people died, wars happened, Wal-Mart flourished, and we all got older. Life is beautiful, in all its many aspects. I don't care HOW cliche and stupid that sounds.

Happy New Years.